Down and Out

Thank you for asking about me ladies!

♥ ♥ ♥ It really means a lot to me! ♥ ♥ ♥

Wednesday, a lady T-Boned the driver side of my car. I was driving.

I have a very painful shoulder due to torn muscles, ligaments, or tendons or something. I had my third Dr.'s visit yesterday where I learned he actually WANTS me to stay on the pain meds (& muscle relaxer & anti-inflammatory) around the clock...good because it provides some relief although it's very temporary, and allows me to do a little more, until the med starts wearing off and my shoulder screams from the activity I've engaged in. Frustrating because I'm doing SOOO little.

I'm not on the PC much because it hurts my eyes and head.

But I've got physical therapy next 2 weeks and hope that helps the healing to start.

And to my relief, today my boss said I have my job no matter how long it takes to get back! (My left shoulder and arm muscles are critical to my job.)

Likely no broken bones.

I AM doing some light lurking. I'm really trying to check in on the blogs, just not up to typing with the nausea, blurriness and pain.

Love to you, who cared to read this!

Missing Followers?

At least it's not just me this time. In the past, I'd tried to use blogger to comment on friend's blogs, to find myself in a vicious circle everytime having to sign-up, log-in, re-sign-up, over and over. It's largely why that, here in 2009, blogging is new to me!

Now I see my followers count has increased, and I am one of them!

Yup...apparently I'm following myself! Good thing I'm not afraid of my own shadow or there would be a serious confrontation there!

But others are saying they've lost followers.

This was posted at blogger:

"Hey folks,
You may have noticed the number of your public Followers has decreased over the last few hours. We are in the process of integrating with Friend Connect.

There is small set of users that already use both Blogger Following and Friend Connect. To avoid linking the profiles of Blogger and Friend Connect users without their permission, we have set these users to "anonymous". They are still following privately and will able to make themselves public again.

With the official launch of the Friend Connect integration, we will communicate with the affected users to encourage them to reset their relationship to public. To reiterate, the number of Followers has not changed, and we believe that the launch will improve the visibility of your blog and community. We will post more details on Blogger Buzz and here as the launch approaches.

Thanks for your patience,
Gatsby
The Blogger Team

What ARE they doing for those poor "donateds"?

This post is for Roxymommy. It is written with love for you and my friends travelling the TTC path, ...and heavily dotted with sarcasm toward the blogger in question.

Wow.

I followed that "moron" link to find out what you referred to. This guy's title doesn't seem to work for his cause, by the way.

MORON is a good word. "Buffoon" is pretty good too, but I'm scared that person isn't joking...that that site is not just a spoof.

He (she?) refers to human beings conceived of donor sperm as "the donateds" throughout his blogs. And he doesn't appear to be trying to be cruel, it's just the callous way he refers to these human beings. Really lends credence to the stand he seems to be taking! (not.)

In his "About me" he compares adoptions/donorships to slavery and wife beating as well as excessive CO2 emissions. So...donorships should change too? (How so?) I had difficulty following the train of thought here.

And I for one, love etymology and have a pretty good vocabulary but found his (or her) verbal posturing DROLL! His thoughts are scattered and fragmented.

Really, you gotta laugh! Keep reading his various blogs (which is very difficult!).

He/she talks as if humans are being donated and sold. And while I know the abortion issue raises question about how early a person becomes a person, (zygote, blastocyst, embryo, fetus, WHEN exactly?), I don't believe sperm are at issue anywhere but his blog. Donated sperm creates an unhappy "donated"? And this is not fair to them? (you are such mean donor sperm recipients!) *rolling eyes*

In his paragraph "Why roots matter..." he is apparently talking to homosexuals but is so unclear in his thinking and writing that you don't know that until he mentions "same as hetero's money". He ends the paragraph saying the fertility industry "doesn't give a damn if the children sold to the public are happy". Yeah dude, appalling! Why aren't they determining before the sale, whether those sperm actually WANT to become a human "donated"? (Oh...but you already KNOW they would NOT!)

Wait! I have some friends who are parents of "donateds"! Let's see if they would describe them as being as miserable with their lives as he claims! Of course if THEY (the parents) referred to their children as "the donateds", I bet there would be bigger issues at hand other than the facts of their conception!

I have a suggestion for this blogger...given his ideology and compassion for sperm, I think he should become a serious advocate for them.

He should stop picking on parents who love the resulting human being, their child, and go after those men who, through countless masturbatory emissions during their lives, are murdering potential "donateds" and non-donateds! I think this is so much more shocking!

Ok maybe I'm being dramatic. Perhaps it's just reckless abandonment? Either way....a SERIOUS cause to fight for!

Such ignorance!

Roxymommy, I loved your post and hope know you won't break your stride until you have your precious bundle(s) in your arms! Hugs girl.

God Always Understands

I think I've finally decided to give up ttc.
It's not going to happen unless I actively pursue it and doing that the past few years has yielded nothing but disappointment.
And yes, I've thought about adopting, but no, I'm not going to consider it.
I raised two step-children from a young age and that did not fill the hole I feel because I can't conceive one of my own. Not to mention the issues with RAD and missing a good part of their formative years.
I also simply don't have the money for an adoption, IVF, etc...
I've been "deciding" this for a long time and I'm almost to the point of accepting it!
So now I devote all of my time oohing and ahhing over others' successes, while I plan a different kind of future.
Any ideas?
I want to come up with a 5-year plan for my life, as daunting as that sounds.
I'm excited to think about getting rid of the routines, useless dreams, and stress over my life not being fulfilled.
I need some new goals that I can reach!

I've got Lady now, and the adoration seems mutual! She is the BEST dog I've ever had. Often, it's like raising a child! That will suffice!
Will post pics of her soon!

The Love Dare

Have you seen the movie Fireproof?

Let me warn you first, this is a Christian movie. If you are not interested in Christian themes, you won't care much for the movie.

But if you are Christian, whether mediocre or fanatical, and have a spouse or partner, you can definitely benefit from taking The Love Dare.

This is supposed to be a great tool for improving your relationship!

You can also follow along on that site and leave comments, or set up your own journal!

More info:

♥ A Dozen good reasons to see Fireproof

♥ See the Trailer (I had to click the pause button and let it load halfway so it wouldn't interrupt)

♥ The Love Dare

Thank you SO much!

Thank you to everybody who sent prayer, thoughts, hugs regarding Pepper. Although the depth of my sadness is still profound feeling, the tragic, shocking feeling is waning, thank God. It felt like I was always going to feel that way. I appreciate the positivity from you.

I thought I should blog every day or two but was feeling too negative to put anything out there.

I have to say the warm welcomes to the blog world that I received were SOOO heart-warming! I don't know why I didn't do this sooner (thanks onemorebaby for your help in getting me started...sorry I didn't listen sooner) because it felt like so many people disappeared off the boards and right out of this world. But here you are! A good many of you anyway! I'm so thrilled to be able to catch up. I've got so much more reading to do!

Thank you so much from the bottom of my heart!